"For we wrestle not against flesh and blood, but against principalities, against powers, against the rulers of the darkness of this world, against spiritual wickedness in high places" (Ephesians 6:12).

By the time I entered my teens and through my early adulthood, I was chaos... the battle raged within as, allied with Satan, I sought to destroy myself.

Isaiah 14:9 Hell from beneath is moved for thee to meet thee at thy coming: it stirreth up the dead for thee, even all the chief ones of the earth; it hath raised up from their thrones all the kings of the nations. 10 All they shall speak and say unto thee, Art thou also become weak as we? art thou become like unto us? 11 Thy pomp is brought down to the grave, and the noise of thy viols: the worm is spread under thee, and the worms cover thee.

James 4:3 Ye ask, and receive not, because ye ask amiss, that ye may consume it upon your lusts.

The Fall of the Golden Kingdom by Jonathan Bowser

My personal anthem was similar to this:

Deaf Forever by Motorhead

Stoneface dog, swirling fog, gates open on the dark dark, night
Standing stone, skull and bone, dead witness to an unseen fight
Beat the drum, beat the drum, beat forever on the endless march
Stricken dumb, cut and run, someone is screaming and the sky is dark

Sword and shield, bone and steel, rictus grin
Deaf forever to the battle's din

March or croak, flame and smoke, burn forever in eternal pain
Charge and fall, bugle call, bone splinter in the driving rain
Horses scream, Viking dream, drowned horses in a lake of blood
Armored fist, severed wrist, broken spears in a sea of mud

Sword and shield, bone and steel, rictus grin
Deaf forever to the battle's din

Mother Earth, Mother Earth, enfold you in her cold embrace
Sinking down, killing ground, worm crawling on your cold white face
Win or lose, naught to choose, all men are equal when their memory fades
No one knows friend or foes, if Valhalla lies beyond the grave

Sword and shield, bone and steel, rictus grin
Deaf forever to the battle's din